Breathe, Live and Smell The Roses...

Adele - Set Fire to the Rain Lyrics

2012-02-16T21:13:00.000+08:00

I am loving Adele!

Whitney Houston - Greatest Ballads Medley (1985-2011)

2012-02-12T10:18:00.000+08:00

R.I.P. Whitney.. I will always love you.

Life is: Disappointments

2012-01-28T16:43:00.000+08:00

The first month of 2012 and I already had a few disappointment!

Azim's application for a transfer to a vocational school has been rejected. His dream was crushed and so was mine! I was hoping to put him into that school so he could study better and to avoid him from mixing with his 'problematic' friends. As that's not going to happen now, I have to double my effort in keeping him focus with his study and keep him under close watch. Oh and yaa.. he broke his collarbone just recently due to a fall.

Next, the new so-called pay hike didn't happen or at least hasn't been happening yet! I was so hoping that it would soon so that I could buy an LCD projector that I have been longing for ages. Teaching would be much easier and much more interesting with that and the students wouldn't have to listen to me babbling all the time. Let the machine do the teaching, that's a change that I would like to see soon. But.. it's not happening .. just yet.

Still no underwater camera for me yet. I haven't been able to go diving for almost a year now.. The last I did was in March last year. I missed diving!!!

I put on weight! This is a sad story! The long holiday helped me a lot. I was too generous to myself and let myself indulged into those sins of the gluttony; eat, eat and be merry!. I tried to shed that extra kilos when school reopened by eating a healthy diet, more fruits, more vegetables, more plain water, less sugar, less fattening food, no food after 8p.m, exercising. But all my efforts were to no avail. SAD!

A friend unfriended me because I have no time to entertain his nonsenses. I'm not talking about the term 'unfriend' as used in facebook or other social networks, I'm talking about a friend in real life. Yet, I am thankful to him for having the courage to do what he did. I was thinking of doing so a long time ago but I didn't have the heart. Even though I should be rejoicing for this, I still call this as one of the disappointments because I should be the one to call off this friendship.

My washing machine isn't working properly and so do the two TV sets. I can still do the laundry sans the drying as the spinner isn't functioning. So, I need to wring each clothes before hanging them out to be dried. I am not loving this! As for the TVs,a disadvantage to my sons. No more PlayStation til late night. Actually a disadvantage for me as well, as they are now using my laptop and desktop to play games.

It seems that a lot of things didn't go well so far. I need some motivation!!!!

I need the lights!!..

Cannot Love?.. Why oh why???

2012-01-21T00:49:00.001+08:00

This is just awesome!!!!! Awesomeness!!!!
Let's sing together..

Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend its over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What weve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what weve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone

How can I not love you
When you are gone

The Pink Pill

2012-01-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Date : 19th January

Day : Thursday

Venue : Class 1-5

The cramp worsened, my legs got weak, my hands shook, I had cold sweat flowing down from my scalp, my breath became short and frequent, I didn't seem to be able to control my body, my mind said this but my body responded otherwise.. I thought I was going to collapse!

There were forty students looking at me and they must be wondering why I was behaving strangely. I stood up, then sat down.I put on my glasses , then took it off. Repeated actions over and over again. What was happening?

"Darling, please buy me that pink pill for menstrual pain. I can't bear the pain!" A call to Mr. Hubby that saved my life that day!

It never crosses my mind before that I would be asking for that pill.

After swallowing two tablets, I was able to continue my work for the rest of the day!!

How Things Have Changed!

2012-01-08T13:12:00.000+08:00

A forwarded email..

Happy Sunday!! Have a good laugh!

Talking About The First Week

2012-01-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Yes.. back to teaching again. Schools reopen on Wednesday and on that very first day, I was texted by my boss to come earlier to do some registration work. As I didn't expect that, I arrived late. Just a few minutes though. The boss has already had his office crowded with parents. Hehehe.. sorry boss! As soon as he saw me, I signaled that I would take over. Well done ME!

I began teaching on that day. Class 2-5, I taught them last year. I hope they are happy to have me as their teacher AGAIN! I know students of 2-1 do. They have been texting me during the holidays begging me to teach them and be their form teacher. OK now you got me.. be prepared! Another class is 2-8, all I can say is they are all kinda weak in their study so I have to be prepared!

First week of school was a busy week. There were a lot of things to do.. from teaching, completing documents, registering, spring cleaning, dusting, wrapping, and etc etc..[look so exaggerated! LOL]

Today, I went for another book-hunting. I bought a few reference books to be used in my teaching. It's not that I can't use my old books [I have tons of them] but I really love buying new books.

I also had my laptop reformatted. So no laptop for tonight. Tomorrow, yes.

Ok..

Back to school

2012-01-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

Schools reopen tomorrow.

Work resumes as usual.

Routine and routine again.

I will be busy as a bee.

Time-table and lesson notes.

Classes and students.

New faces.

New challenges.

Teach and teach

Chalk and talk

Games seem fun

Exam dreadful.

12.00 to 5.30

Bell rings, rushes home

Housewife at home

A teacher again the next day!!

The First of the 366 Days

2012-01-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

Today is a new day, a new year.. and I should be feeling all refreshed and in high spirit to start the day. Did I? Unfortunately not! I woke up at 8.00 a.m. and didn't do my morning exercise routine. Instead, I turned on the TV and slept on the sofa until it was 10.00 a.m. When my tummy growled for some filling, I dragged myself to make some cereal and then continued ~~sleeping~~ watching TV. The kids and Mr Hubby were also still sleeping soundly.

I turned my computer on and started surfing, playing games, watching YouTube, Facebook-ing, Twitter-ing and all sorts of things over the internet. Hungry?. made some instant noodle. Then, continued watching the computer screen, doing all sorts of things the internet has to offer.

Approximately at 3.00 p.m. I took my 'supposed-to-be' morning bath, washed my face, brushed my teeth (hahaha!) and wore a clean clothes. Then, I continued doing all sorts of things the internet has to offer.

That's my first day of 2012. Interesting I must admit! Hahaha!!

P/s: Shoutmix has officially closed its free service. Thanks for giving me the chance to use your wonderful app. Happy new year..

Happy New Year 2012!!

2012-01-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

As the new year blossoms, may the journey of your life be fragrant with new opportunities, your days be bright with new hopes and your heart be happy with love!

Happy New Year 2012!

AWWM: Day 7

2012-01-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

This is the last day of my AWWM (Season 1.. hahaha) .. there'll be another AWWM next time, I hopefully so...
I'm glad I succeeded completing this project although it was not prefect and has lots of flaws.

And too bad, my last day was not fully captured in photos as I forgot to bring my camera and my mobile phone ran out of battery...

Anyway, here are some...

Breakfast with 'rojak' (invisible) and teh tarik.

Potluck at my mom's house to welcome the new year. I prepared fried prawn noodle.

BBQ

Watching ~~house on fire~~ fireworks on tv when the clock struck 12.. Happy new Year 2012!!

AWWM: Day 6

2011-12-30T23:11:00.005+08:00

Day 6 was not very different from Day 5.. It's a spring-cleaning time.

Sweep, sweep, throw.. sweep and throw.. Morning exercise!

Look at the pile of junk I've been keeping all these years..

Lunch: fried chicken, fish curry and carrot-tofu soup.

My workstation.. macam-macam ada!!

Some of my mugs collection. They were given as presents from my students.

Look at what I found while going through with my things. A self-made Mother's Day greeting card from Azim when he was in primary school.

So sweet!!!

.. Tomorrow is the last day of 2011..and so is my AWWM..

AWWM: Day 5

2011-12-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

Today was quite boring... and the pics were also dull!

Started my day with FB and realised as of today I have 195 friends in my list. Still short of 5 to reach 200. And of course playing Castleville!!

Next, to Kolombong Giant to buy some stuff. Asar prayer while on the way back.

The stuff that I bought.Some tidy-up needed to be done.

I also bought this.. yayy!

This shoe rack was a lucky draw present I got during Gaya College reunion recently. Now only I have the time to assemble and put it into use.

My brooch collection, now nicely put.

My dinner, a mug of cereal drink and 2 packets of biscuits. And Day 5 ended as it has started, with FB once again!

Someone Like You

2011-12-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

Once I love someone, even after I move on, it will always hurt me to see them with someone else

This song is currently #1 on my top ten chart!!

AWWM: Day 4

2011-12-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Done a few things today but was only able to capture few pics..

AWWM: Day 3

2011-12-27T21:14:00.000+08:00

There's nothing much today probably due to the rain..

Today's capture:

Rain
Short drive to school
Work
Sleep (not captured)
Eat (not captured)

The last 2 mentioned were not captured as I was so deeply engrossed doing it..

AWWM: Day 2

2011-12-26T17:12:00.001+08:00

Today is 'Back-to-school Shopping' day.

Upon reaching home, we did the long-delayed cut-cutting event of Muazzim's birthday.. He is now 15 years old.. Yayy!! His cake has been in the fridge for the past 2 days!!

On a different note, I nearly had an accident today. Tiredness and sleepiness might have been the cause. I fell asleep while we were heading home from KK. It happened so fast.. I remembered I was just blinking my eyes and there I was driving on the opposite lane. A Kancil was heading towards my car. It was fortunate enough I was able to get back to the left lane before it was too late. The kids were shocked but kept silent. Thank GOD!!

P/s: Monday hasn't ended yet.. any detailed or interesting events that might come after this will be updated later.

Ok, then... May you have a nice day!

AWWM: Day 1

2011-12-26T01:10:00.000+08:00

Morning started with this little companion of mine...

The rest of the day was a Christmas story..

Merry Christmas everyone...

A Week With Me

2011-12-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

OK, I saw this cool idea of capturing a-week daily happening in pics from Ali Edwards' Week In The Life. I'm going to name this project 'A Week With Me' [whether you like it or not! hehehe]. I think I will start it tomorrow.. and tomorrow is actually Christmas.. Perfect timing!!

So, ma'am.. get that camera clicking!!!

Merry Christmas.

2011-12-24T16:45:00.000+08:00

Ho! Ho! Ho!

Concerns of The Heart

2011-12-23T14:20:00.001+08:00

I cannot lie to myself that I'm not deeply sad and frustrated. I try as hard as I can not to show my disappointment to other people and it's eating me from inside. I had tried whatever I possibly could and it was still not enough. Eventhough, the result came as expected, maybe better than I expected but seeing other people's kids did way much better, it just broke my heart!

Dear son,
You have chosen your own path and from what I've seen so far, it was not a good choice. I am still hoping that miracles happen along the way. I will not stop praying for your success. And remember that I will always support and love you, no matter what. But son, for once.. try to make your parents proud.

Highland Getaway: Kundasang, Ranau

2011-12-21T00:42:00.106+08:00

After two island getaways.. my holiday took on a different route.. A visit to the highland. One of the most famous places to visit is Kundasang, Ranau. Mount Kinabalu, the highest mountain in Malaysia, is located here.

I had climbed the mountain thrice. First, when I was 19 years old, just finished schooling then. Secondly, while I was in Gaya College in early 90s (91 or 92, can't remember exactly). And lastly when I was struggling to get my degree in UMS, back in 2003 (or was it 2002?). I was a mom with 2 sons then!! If given a chance and a good health, I would love very much to climb it once again!!

As usual.. I'm kinda lazy with words.. so, let the photos tell the story.


On our way up. Mount Kinabalu is in the back!

Kinabalu National Park

Mount Kinabalu Heritage Resort and Spa (formerly known as Perkasa Hotel)

Admiring the lush greenery

Poring Hot Spring, Ranau

We stayed at Celyn Resort Kundasang

The only disappointment was the road to the hotel.

Desa Cattle Farm, Kundasang. There's a moo, moo here, moo, moo there..!!

Kundasang War Memorial

On our way back..

Highland getaway.. that's a wrap!!!

Island Getaway 2 :Labuan

2011-12-15T00:57:00.002+08:00

Unlike Manukan Island which is all sand and beaches, Labuan is a city on an island. People come to Labuan mainly for its duty-free shopping. Cigarettes of all kinds, alcohol and chocolates are the most popular items here.

The main reason I chose Labuan as my holiday spot is because I would like to visit my old school, SBPL (Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Labuan) or as it is now known as SMSL (Sekolah Menengah Sains Labuan). I remember we used to race back to the hostel after prep class every night to avoid long queue in the laundry room. YES! We have to queue to wash our clothes because washing and ironing facilities were limited. There are a lot of changes to the school, new buildings, lots of trees, display corners.

My former school: SBPL

While there, my former classmate in SBPL, took me to visit all the places of interest in Labuan. We enjoyed reminiscing the good old days .

Labuan War Memorial

Labuan Chimney Museum

Labuan Bird Park

On the 11th of December, we had the chance to experience the full moon eclipse.. through our hotel window! Because I didn't have any sophisticated camera to capture the phenomenal event, my son's sony ericson mobile phone camera will do!

Full moon eclipse

On our last day, there was nothing much to do except shopping for chocolates! Yummyy!!

So, that was my island holiday!

WW: Over My Shoulder

2011-12-14T14:35:00.000+08:00

Darkmistry

2011-12-09T20:14:00.000+08:00

Darkmistry is the template that I'm using right now. I like the blue in this template. It's simple and easy to manage. And for a person who is as blind as me in term of programming, script thingy.. this is a good site to visit.

So, do visit Ray Templates

Tomorrow, I will be going for a short family trip to Labuan. So, There'll be no blogging or maybe even internet for a couple of days.

Hope to see you again soon!

Template Hancur!

2011-12-08T19:50:00.001+08:00

I noticed my blog template has became a bit weird.. I know I'm so illiterate about web designing, html or anything related to these things, I guess I just have to wait and see and hopefully it's only temporary, If it's not... *sigh*

Time for template-hunting!

Funny Quotes and Sayings

2011-12-08T11:58:00.000+08:00

OK, today let's look at some funny quotes and sayings:

Have a nice day!!!

WW: Shoes

2011-12-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

Island Getaway: Manukan

2011-12-06T20:43:00.001+08:00

As planned, my family and I went to Manukan Island today. The weather was superb, thank God for that as the the recent days were all rain and wind.

We reached Jesselton Point a few minutes after 8.00 am and bought the tickets. Tickets for four were RM80, rental of snorkeling equipment - RM60; taxes and entrance fee to the island - RM36.80.

Tickets, taxes, fees!

I always prefer Manukan Island to other islands in Kota Kinabalu for its beautiful beach and the water is awesome for snorkeling. It was a pity I still haven't bought myself the underwater camera which I have been longing for so long. The underwater life was amazing like always. The only problem was coral bleaching which is quite serious.

We enjoyed the day in the sun and I believe I am a little bit over-tanned right now!

Welcoming December

2011-12-02T21:37:00.000+08:00

December is finally here, the last month of the year, the most-awaited, colorful, relaxing month and the month which will burn most people's pocket!!! Yeah, for YES (Year End Sale), Cuti-cuti Malaysia, weddingthon, Christmas, back-to-school shopping spree are here!! !

YES

This year I didn't plan for any solo vacation during December which I always did but instead I am ~~forcing Mr. Hubby~~ bringing the whole family for domestic traveling.. Cuti-cuti Sabah! Our first visit will be Mamutik Island on 6th December. I will be doing some snorkeling, and if time and $$$ permit I would love to do some diving, I'm dying for diving!!! It has been a very long time since I last dived! Hopefully everything goes well!!!

Happy Holidays everyone!!

Half -Way Through!

2011-11-29T21:46:00.001+08:00

As the new year draws closer, I try to reflect what I have achieved all these years. Have I found everything I was looking for when I started my journey of life as a wife and mother. Have I been the good wife to my husband? Have I been that loving, great mother to my children? Have I succeeded in my career? And most of all, have I found happiness?

I don't know if it is right to think the way I do but I always feel there's something lacking, like I don't own enough and still wanting more than I have now. There are empty spaces that can never be filled. Deep inside myself, I don't feel anything, I'm yearning for satisfaction that can never be met. The more I try, the harder it becomes.

I seriously don't know what is happening to me.. Maybe I'm having....that dreaded, Oh NO!!! Oh GOD!! Oh Yes!

p/s.. Life begins at 40.. seriously?

Masterchef-ing Myself

2011-11-27T15:33:00.005+08:00

Today, I am going to post an entry about my cooking. Although I love all kind of food and go for any local or western food, my cooking skills are limited to local dishes. I can cook local dishes like curry, asam pedas, chicken rice, fried rice, char kway teow, beef rib soup, mee soup (noodle soup) and a few more but most of the time I like to create my own dish. Creating my own dish doesn't mean I am inventing a new recipe at all but rather adding a few ingredients here and there to an existing dishes.

Today, I am cooking veggie and mushrooms soup, I name it 2+2 Chicken Soup (2 types of mushrooms and 2 types of tuber plants). The recipe is very simple and the ingredients can be added or changed to suit your taste.

Happy cooking!!


The Ingredients for the soup are: carrot, radish, chicken (skinless), dried shiitake mushrooms, canned button mushrooms, creamed corn, garlic and onion (missing ingredient is ginger!). While for the chicken, I marinated it for one hour with oyster sauce, soy sauce, a bit of sugar, salt and turmeric powder.

Stir-fry onion and garlic until golden brown.Then add chicken and stir-fry for a few minutes. Pour about 4 cups of water into the mixture and allow to boil. Add carrots, radishes and mushrooms. Simmer for 5 minutes. Finally add the cream corn and salt to taste.

It is best to eat with white rice. So, that's my lunch for today.

BURP!!!!

Do We Have to Do That?

2011-11-26T08:23:00.003+08:00

In our daily life we often do things that we are not necessarily do. For instance, I wrote the previous sentence as such when I could simply write " We often do unnecessary thing". Hahaha.. what am I babbling about this morning!

But, no, yes.. seriously.. Have you ever wonder why sometimes things that can be simple was made difficult or differently. Like what my son just did this morning, instead of drinking in his usual melamine glass (I use melamine-ware because it is durable of course), he went on using a tall wine glass and what happened was, it slipped off his hand and it BROKE into hundred small pieces. So he had to clean the mess. Unnecessary things bring more work, won't you agree!!

Image

p/s: In the middle or writing this entry.. I had mental block.. So..that's all I guess!
p/s #2: This entry isn't necessarily be written!!!
p/s #3: LOL at myself!

Linkreferral, Where art thou?

2011-11-25T17:41:00.000+08:00

So finally I changed the blog template. This one is a bit wider than the previous. But I still stick to the same colour scheme, dark background. I can't seem to find some of the links when I converted to this template. Linkreferral isn't there anymore. I guess they changed site since I can't even find the page I used to sign in. Well, I'll try to find it back later..

Ok.. have a nice day!!!

Harimau Muda

2011-11-22T22:22:00.000+08:00

It has been a while since I last wrote.

School break is here and I hope I can spend more time blogging. It's not that I was too busy during school term but rather I didn't have too many things to write about and I prefer not to rack my brain to find ideas for my post [a.k.a LAZY]

Last night I watched the SEA Games, a football match between Malaysia and Indonesia. It was a thrilling match especially when both teams have a long history of conflict whenever they played against each other. The game was dragged to extra time. It was all adrenalin rush [for me!] when the winner had to be decided through penalty shootout. Luckily we won!! Yeayyy!!!

And in today's news there were all kinds of happiness, celebration to mark our victory. The sad things are, there were a few negative incidents occurred after the match. I felt sad, angry, upset.. I just can't explained.. I hate those fanatic fans!!! [Read it here]

Anyway.. I just wanted to congratulate the Harimau Muda Team for the sweet victory!!! You did well! You deserved to win!!

My Wish

2011-11-14T16:32:00.000+08:00

Faces of Innocence

2011-10-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

My girls having their lunch

Girls, teenagers.. what are on their minds? Looking at them I see innocence. There are no worries. All they want to do is having fun, enjoying the company of their friends, being happy!

Last Tuesday, I treated my female students lunch as I had promised them if they win a drawing competition at school.

And winning they did!

I.O.U

2011-10-26T18:01:00.002+08:00

I owe you!
If you know the words then you better start paying up.

I am not an angel, nor am I a philanthropist. But I will never turn down a friend who seek help especially regarding financial problems.

There was this friend, let's call this person A. A is a he. One day [many months ago], A called and told me about his car burglary. A few items was stolen. ID card, ATM card, cash, a mobile phone were taken. He could not withdraw money from the ATM machine as the card was stolen and he couldn't do so at the bank counter as well, as his ID card was not with him. He was left penniless!

So, he turned to me for favour. I remember his exact words when he asked me to lend him some cash. "I will pay up as soon as I be able to deal with the bank issues. Don't worry I WILL PAY'

I guess his 'as soon' has a different definition from the one I know. It has been 7 months now and there are no signs that he is doing what he had promised to do. Well, I really don't mind if he hasn't got enough money to pay yet. He can text me and give his endless excuses for not paying up. I can accept that. What pissed me off is he can brag to his friends and mine too, about buying expensive things, dining in exclusive restaurant, pampering his girlfriends with gifts, vacationing overseas.. he can do all that but paying his debt.

And he didn't even bother to answer my emails, calls or my text messages. What kind of man he is? If I were an 'ahlong' (loan-shark), his life would be in misery right now!!!!

Why Women's Brains Are Cheaper [ A Joke]

2011-10-16T10:09:00.002+08:00

Just for laugh.. No offense!

In the hospital the relatives gathered in the waiting room, where their family member lay gravely ill. Finally, the doctor came in looking tired and somber. "I'm afraid I'm the bearer of bad news," he said as he surveyed the worried faces.

"The only hope left for your loved one at this time is a brain transplant. It's an experimental procedure, very risky but it is the only hope. Insurance will cover the procedure, but you will have to pay for the brain yourselves. The family members sat silently as they absorbed the news.

After a great length of time, someone asked, "Well, how much does a brain cost?" The doctor quickly responded, "$5,000 for a male brain, and $200 for a female brain..." The moment turned awkward. Men in the room tried not to smile, avoiding eye contact with the women, but some actually smirked.

A man unable to control his curiosity, blurted out the question everyone wanted to ask, "Why is the male brain so much more?" The doctor smiled at the childish innocence and explained to the entire group, "It's just standard pricing procedure. We have to mark down the price of the female brains, because they've actually been used."

Pix

Super annoying, I can Be That Too!

2011-10-15T22:36:00.000+08:00

I always try my super best to control my anger regardless how bad the situation is. People blamed me for their mistakes, I took it easy. I was given tasks that were supposed to be done by somebody else, I obliged without a single complain, the boss is always right. Sometimes, my kids give me trouble at home, disrespecting me, I still can put a smile on my face. Mr. Hubby showed uneasiness for the things I did for him despite doing the best to my ability, I apologized and accepted my weakness.

Why am I so forgiving? Is that the case, or am I just plain stupid!

The reason for doing the things I did is simple. I can be twice as annoying to them if I want to. I can make life miserable for them. I can make them crawl on their feet and come crying to me. I really can be super annoying and mess their life, IF I WANT TO!

Oh, yes I can! But what and where it will lead me to? More hatred and anger. Haven't we had enough?

Pix

What Teachers Make

2011-09-21T23:44:00.000+08:00

Beyond: Down Memory Lane

2011-09-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

I was surfing YouTube when I came across this old song by Beyond, (a Hong Kong pop group during the late 80s and early 90) that I love so much. It was a time when K-Pop was still unheard of. For those who are not living in Malaysia, K-Pop or Korean Pop has became an addiction especially to teenagers. Wonder Girls, Super Junior, Rain, SNSD, just to name a few are making it big in Malaysian entertainment market. They have superb songs with fantastic choreography to go along. There's no denying they are great performers.

Yet for me, I still prefer this kind of song. I even search the pin yin lyric for this song. So, here it is.. enjoy the song!

Beyond - Zhen Dik Oi Lei

Mou fat ho sau sik dik yat dui sau
Dai chut wen luan weng yuan zoi bui hou
Zhong si luo so chi zhong guan ju but dong zhen sik tai noi gou

Cham zui yu yan kap ta but zhan siong
Mou chen dik oi kuet weng mei tui yong
Kuet sam chong hoi sam zong zhen zak chen yan zhong ho bou dap

Chun fung fa yu luan tou ngo dik sam
Yat sang dui gu mou yin dik song zhen

* Si nei do mo wen heng dik muk kong
Gao ngo kin ngai mong jiouk cin lou
Ting jiuk ngo dit tou but ying fong hei
Mut fat kai sik jem ho bou jun chan yan
Oi yi fun dai si mou han, cheng jun ngo
Suet sing zhen dik oi lei

Mou fat ho sau sik dik yat dui sau
Dai chut wen luan weng yuan zoi bui hou
Zhong si luo so chi zhong guan ju but dong zhen sik tai noi gou

Ying gei hei wen heng dik yat dui sau
Chin zong kap ngo jiu gu mei bian yong
Lei siong kam tin zong yu dang dao
Fen heung kong fai pan zhou dao

Chun fung fa yu luan tou ngo dik sam
Yat sang dui gu mou yin dik song zhen

* Si nei do mo wen heng dik muk kong
Gao ngo kin ngai mong jiouk cin lou
Ting jiuk ngo dit tou but ying fong hei
Mut fat kai sik jem ho bou jun chan yan
Oi yi fun dai si mou han, cheng jun ngo
Suet sing zhen dik oi lei

Chun fung fa yu luan tou ngo dik sam
Yat sang dui gu mou yin dik song zhen

* Si nei do mo wen heng dik muk kong
Gao ngo kin ngai mong jiouk cin lou
Ting jiuk ngo dit tou but ying fong hei
Mut fat kai sik jem ho bou jun chan yan
Oi yi fun dai si mou han, cheng jun ngo
Suet sing zhen dik oi lei

Love Can Happen

2011-09-13T16:34:00.004+08:00

The chance to love and be loved exists no matter where you are.
~ Oprah Winfrey

When I was younger, I didn't have the experience of falling in and out of love so much. As a teenager, I never had any boyfriends. I never had the experience of 'puppy love', the feeling of fleeting on air because of deeply in love, never smiled alone when thinking of that someone special, never received any gift during my birthday, or on valentine's day, Christmas or new year.

However, it didn't mean that I had never have a crush on someone. I did, a few times. My first crush was my classmate. It was back in 1987. We always chatted during our prep (preparation class). We would share stories about how we miss our home since we were studying in a boarding school. He was a great friend. And whenever he went for sports tournaments, he would buy us (my BFF and I) chocolate. Unfortunately, I was not brave enough to say the magic words. So, nothing happened! The sparks eventually died.

My second crush was while I was in Teacher's Training College, undergoing training to become a teacher. We have so much in common. Adventurous, outgoing, quiet at times.. and we even share the same birthday! I cared for him and I prefer to think that he cared for me too but somehow in the end I found out that I wasn't good enough for him as I remembered him say that his family didn't quite approve because we have different beliefs then. It was a brief, short-lived love, if it can be called love at all.

I don't have the third...

I've came to know my husband when I was posted to his school. After 2 years, we got married. We don't have so many lovey-dovey tales to tell. Love just happened!

Jar of Hearts

2011-09-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

i know i can’t take one more step towards you
cause all thats waiting is regret
don’t you know i’m not your ghost anymore
you lost the love i loved the most

i learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

i hear you’re asking all around
if i am anywhere to be found
but i have grown too strong
to ever fall back in your arms

ive learned to live, half alive
and now you want me one more time

who do you think you are?
runnin’ ’round leaving scars
collecting a jar of hearts
and tearing love apart
you’re gonna catch a cold
from the ice inside your soul
don’t come back for me
who do you think you are?

it took so long just to feel alright
remember how to put back the light in my eyes
i wish i had missed the first time that we kissed
cause you broke all your promises
and now you’re back
you don’t get to get me back

I am so in love with this song!!!

Happy Birthday, Sweet Sixteen!

2011-07-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

Sweet Sixteen? Yes, my son (not daughter, I don't have any) turns 16 today. All grown up! Sometimes I lost track of time and still think of him as my baby boy!

My son, Muazzam aged a month with Mr. Hubby, 16 years ago!

Happy sweet 16 darling! Mama wish you all the best in life.

Remember that Mama and Dad always love you!

Happy birthday!!!

Farewell Friend!

2011-07-17T21:50:00.002+08:00

"Some friends are not friends, they just happened to be there. Sadly I learned it the hard way. Maybe it is time to bid farewell and go on"

I wrote that on my Facebook status. And received quite a lot of responses concerning what friends are. I agree that we have our own perceptions of our friends and no one knows them better except their true friends.

Frankly speaking, I don't have so many friends. But the ones I do, I consider them as my Best Friend Forever (BFF). Therefore, when the meaning of friendship was betrayed, it hurt me badly. I don't wish to lose any friends but I can't afford to be hurt again and again. I think I had enough of this kind of friends.

I have been TOO forgiving. I know my faith demands me to forgive other people wrongdoings towards me but should I when the same mistakes were repeated over and over again. I felt such a fool.

Some friends became extra nice to me because of some hidden agendas. Most of the time they needed some favour, but that I don't mind. I don't mind helping out when my help is needed. What made me sad or maybe angry was when my so-called friends used me to get to the things they wanted. And if it didn't work out well, they would put all the blame on me. I've been through this, many times and I think this is about time I put a stop.

So, my [ex]-friends, if you happen to read this (I doubt you ever will), the time has come for me to say farewell. Good luck in finding new friends. Losing me wasn't a big deal to you anyway. Though, I am sad to let you go, I can't afford to be hurt anymore. I wish you all the best!

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2011-07-16T22:09:00.001+08:00

Unplanned...but I watched harry Potter! I wasn't planning to watch movie this week due to loads of work but I ended up watching Harry Potter! It was awesome! The magic never cease to amaze me. I'm glad Harry Potter doesn't have to run away or hide again anymore! Serves you right Voldemort!!

But,I am sad cos this is the finale. No more Harry Potter, it's over!! *sob

Albus Severus Potter, you better have your own movie next!!!!

Harimau against The Reds

2011-07-16T09:21:00.002+08:00

After losing to the Gunners 0-4, on Wednesday, our Harimau will play against another EPL giant, Liverpool today at 5.45 p.m.. Although I don't expect Harimau to beat the Reds, my heart still cheer out for my Malaysian team. You go guys!!

Liverpool’s (from left) Jamie Carragher, Andy Carroll, John Flanagan, Sotirios Kyrgiakos, Christian Poulsen and Raul Meireles posing in front of The Pavilion during a meet-the-fan session yesterday. — EPA

Inspiring Words

2011-07-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

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Heavy rains remind us of challenges in life. Never ask for a lighter rain.

Just pray for a better umbrella.
That is attitude.

When flood comes, fish eat ants & when flood recedes, ants eat fish. Only time matters.
Just hold on, God gives opportunity to everyone!

Life is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship,
it's not how we care in the beginning, but how much we care till the very end.

Some people always throw stones in your path. It depends on you what you make with them.

A Wall or a Bridge? Remember you are the architect of your life.
Search for a beautiful heart, but don't search for a beautiful face' coz beautiful things are not always good, but good things are always beautiful.

It’s not important to hold all the good cards in life.
but it’s important how well you play with the cards you hold.

Often when we lose all hope & think this is the end, God smiles from above and says, `relax dear it’s just a bend, not the end.
Have Faith and have a successful life.

One of the basic differences between God and humans is, God gives, gives and forgives.
but the human gets, gets, gets and forgets.

Be thankful in life....

Received in an email.

Thanks Oliver :)

Wordless Wednesday #1

2011-07-13T16:07:00.000+08:00

Just happened to know about Wordless Wednesday (WW). So here's my first post.

Why Do Women Want to Look Pretty?

2011-07-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

Mr. Hubby and I were having a drink when a woman walked in. Her long straight hair bounces as she walked making her the centre of attention. She had her makeup on, dark shades on her eyelids, long thick lashes, burning red lipstick on her pouty lips, pinkish cheeks, skin so shimmering and smooth and those big ~~brown~~ blue eyes, apparently she wore contact lenses! Her svelte figure with curves all at the right places was clearly outlined under her tight modern baju kurung (a traditional costume). She was just gorgeous! How could a man not fall in love with such beauty?

And then out of the blue, Mr Hubby popped this question: Why do women want to look pretty?

The question paralyzed my thought for a while. I just stared at him blankly. And at the back of my mind later on, I could feel a lot of urges to respond to him but words didn't find their way out.

So, why do women want to look pretty? I believe every woman has different answers to this question. We have our own reasons to look the way we wanted other people to see us. I cannot answer for them but to me, being pretty is not a necessity but having a presentable appearance is. But how do I define 'a presentable appearance'?

For me a presentable appearance is when people look at you and they have nothing to complain or compliment. It is a 'just nice' kind of appearance. I don't have to be so damn sexy, having a figure like J Lo or Beyonce, but I don't want to be too fat or too skinny either ( laugh! I don't think I can ever come to this skinny thingy)

As for the face, yes I do wear makeup but not overly paint myself. Face powder, foundation, eyeshadow, eye liner, blusher and lipstick are all that I need. I don't even put on any mascara.

I think my idea of beauty is the most simple. As long as I am comfortable with myself then I should be ok.

"So, darling.. why do you think women want to look pretty?" Mr. Hubby repeated his question.

"I think God has created women to behave that way. So, you better ask God honey." was my answer to his question.

Itchy fingers, you failed me!!!

2011-07-09T12:44:00.002+08:00

I guess those who read my blog before would notice the change in my template..I love the previous template so much.. but my itchy finger did something and grrrr..... I accidentally changed it without saving my previous template.. now I'm going to search for that previous template...dusshhhhh!!!!

Update 6.11p.m. : Restored the previous template! But my followers are GONE!!

Connecting with the World

2011-07-08T00:45:00.000+08:00

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   Once upon a time, there was a queen who always felt lonely among her friends and family. She lived with her King and two young princes in a palace far away in the wood. The Queen was always complaining about her dull life. Even though she could have everything she asked for, it didn't satisfy her. She felt empty inside, there was a hollow in her life.

   One day, the King gave her a gift that he thought would make her happy. He gave her a computer! And he introduced her to the world without boundaries, the internet! From that day onwards, the Queen was never lonely. There would always be someone to talk to, somewhere around the globe, whenever she felt like talking.

   And so the King and the Queen and their two princes lived happily ever after.

The story of the Queen with her computer ended happily there but mine was not. When I started 'connecting with the world', I had a very bad experience. I was hooked on the net almost 24 hours a day. Whenever I was not sleeping or work or doing anything else, you would find me glued to the PC monitor. There was always something to surf. Videos on Youtube, news and stories around the world, all kind of them. But one thing that really put a hook on me was chatting. I would sit for hours chatting with people whom I never met or would never have the chance to meet at all because they came from all over the world.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, I would wake up to chat. I lost track of the time when I started to chat. There were times when I chatted from midnight until dawn. I remember I heard the rooster crow at dawn. I was so addicted to chatting that if I didn't chat for a day my life would be miserable! I was an addict.

It went on for about a year. Then, I gradually stopped. I didn't really know what caused me to stop but maybe it was the constant nags I got from Mr. Hubby. We quarreled a lot because of this. In one of our arguments, he was so angry that he smashed and stepped on my keyboard. It broke into two! I was so furious as well and gave him the silent treatment for weeks. But in the end, we made up and he bought me a new keyboard!

How did I become hooked to chatting? My answer was very simple. I was lonely and needed someone to talk to. As I didn't go out often (at that time!), I got bored easily. Mr. Hubby was not always home. So, every time we quarreled, I would say "You were not home most of the time, so what do you expect me to do? Sit and watch TV? Eat and sleep? Do all the house chores?" (My winning point all the time!)

That was seven years ago. I have since met a few chatters and became friends, some even became my best friends. Nowadays, I don't chat anymore. I have found a new love. I write a blog.

Jail and Rattan

2011-07-06T16:40:00.000+08:00

The thought of a father molesting his own daughter maddened her. The face that she sees almost every weekend pretending to be nice towards his daughters doubled her anger. She could never believe that he is a monster if not for his own daughter's confession. She made up her mind. She would not let it go without doing anything.

" ..for sexually molesting his own daughter, the court sentence Mr. XXX to a 10-year jail term and be given 5 strokes of the rattan ...."

The words disappeared through the noise of the courtroom. She let out a deep breath. Relieved.

My Favourite Quotes

2011-07-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

10 of my favourite quotes:

Freedom is not merely the opportunity to do as one pleases; neither is it merely the opportunity to choose between set alternatives. Freedom is, first of all, the chance to formulate the available choices, to argue over them -- and then, the opportunity to choose ~ C. Wright Mills
I hope you have not been leading a double life, pretending to be wicked and being really good all the time. That would be hypocrisy ~ Oscar Wilde
People are like stained glass windows: they sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within ~Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable ~ Sydney J. Harris
An error does not become truth by reason of multiplied propagation, nor does truth become error because nobody sees it ~ Mohandas K. Gandhi
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight ~ Kahlil Gibran
What does not destroy me, makes me strong ~ Friedrich Nietzsche
Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is a little like expecting a bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian ~ Dennis Wholey
True peace is not merely the absence of tension: it is the presence of justice ~ Martin Luther King, Jr.
The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time ~ Mark Twain

What's your favourite?

I touch the future. I teach.

2011-07-02T16:36:00.001+08:00

I know I have a noble job. I have heard people told me so many times before. It's not a glamorous job. It doesn't pay handsomely. Yet, I have a job!

This job of mine gives me the chance to practice a lot of skill. Apart from the essential role as an educator, I am also a parent, a psychiatrist, a motivator, a friend, a disciplinarian and a nurse to my students.

Role #1: A Parent

As a parent, I have to take care of their needs in school. It is my responsibility to make sure they have everything they need so that they can study without hindrances. If a student come to me and report she has lost her money and she was hungry, I would give her some money for food. It was not officially written in my teacher's oath but mother's instinct is so strong that I would not allow the student to go hungry without doing anything to help. Would you?

Role #2: A Psychiatrist

As a psychiatrist, it allows me to explore in-depth into the student's emotion. I would have the chance to look into their mind, figuring out what they were thinking, what makes them to do the things they did. Isn't it cool?

Role #3: A Motivator

Schoolwork, tests and examinations can be tiring and boring sometimes. Students need to be motivated to go through these phases of life where all of those things are inevitable. Sometimes I meet students who are very weak in their studies. They never pass any tests or exams. As a teacher, I must never lose hope in them. Even though it is impossible to change them overnight, I know my words of encouragement do motivate them to keep on learning. Seeing them coming to school every day makes me proud. And for me, it is already a success!

Role #4: A Friend

There are some bonds between a teacher and students apart from the formal teacher-student relationship. I enjoy being among my students. We share everyday life stories, we enjoy one another company. If we can be friends with the students they will open up to us.

Role #5: A Disciplinarian

Disciplinary matters are the most difficult to handle at schools. There won't be a day passes without an act of disciplinary problem. Therefore, it is not surprising if implementing discipline and order in school is one of a teacher's core duty.

Role #6: A Nurse

Madam, I have a headache! My stomach aches! When students come to you with these.. what are you going to do? I will normally put on my nurse hat and start being a nurse. I will touch their forehead to check their temperature. Then, I will ask them questions like, have you taken your breakfast? When did you start to feel dizzy? etc. After questioning, I will give them 3 options. First, do you want to take any paracetamol? (But make sure they are not allergic to it). Second, do you want to rest for a while, then go back to class after you're feeling better? Third, do you want me to call your parents and fetch you home?

"I touch the future. I teach." - Christa McAuliffe.

The Big C

2011-06-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

ZA, I am so tired, tired of everything. I'm tired of my sickness, tired of the pills I have to take to ease the pain but still the pain is there. I miss you, I miss being among my friends. Every time I thought I was strong enough to meet you, the sickness took over and left me weak. I'm sorry for cancelling our date before. My medication costs a lot. My brother is paying for it now but I don't know for how long. He is just a small time contractor.
I am feeling down right now. I wanted to cry but tears just won't come out..

An email from a dear friend saddens me. Just as I thought she is doing fine, the email tells otherwise. My heart goes out to her. I hope I can do more to help her. I wish there is a way to ease her pain. I wish for miracle to happen and cure her. I wish she will win the fight. I have so many wishes for her but we are talking about Cancer here and the chances of winning seem very small.

Cancer, the deadly disease, feared by all has taken the life of some important people in my life. My aunt lost her battle to cervical cancer in 2003. She was bedridden for months before the deadly C took her life. She, however, gave a good fight. She never lost her hope and her strength and from her hospital bed, she always asked to be strong. She was a very strong woman indeed. Nevertheless, the big C won in the end.

Mr Bing, was initially my chat friend. I got to know him in a chat room back in 2004. Then we became real life friends after meeting him a few times. He was one of the people that I must meet whenever I came to KL. He would bring my friends and I to dinner and told us all kinds of story, his experiences during his younger days. He just loved to talk. In the middle of last year he was diagnosed with lung cancer. I had the chance to meet him at the hospital. He was skin and bone. Yet, he was himself, he talked a lot. His wife told us, he was excited to see us. That same year, in November, Mr. Bing left us. I heard the sad news while I was teaching in class. I wept silently.

Last month, my former classmate and a dear friend, lost his wife due to cancer. I blogged about that here.

I know somehow there'll be a sad ending but I still have my one wish..

I wish my friend will live long enough to see her daughters grow up and she'll have long enough time to be with us, her friends, again.

Dear, I pray for you....

Been away..busy!

2011-06-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged for a while. I miss it!

I will blog soon.

It's been a hectic day!

As lazy as Corey, my cat!

Jessie J - Price Tag ft. B.o.B.

2011-06-22T23:18:00.001+08:00

Seems like everybody's got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the sale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and
Smile

Why is everybody so serious
Acting so damn mysterious
Got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good time

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight
It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag
Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Chang Cha-Chang.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Blang Ba-Blang
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Okay!
We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all unite
And it wasn't low blows and video hoes,
Am I the only one getting tired
Why is everybody so obsessed
Money can't buy us happiness
Can we all slow down and enjoy right now
Guarantee we'll be feeling Alright.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We're paying with love tonight
It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag
Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Chang Cha-Chang.

Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Blang Ba-Blang
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

[B.o.B]
Yeah yeah
Well, keep the price tag
And take the cash back
Just give me six strings and a half stACK.
And you can keep the cars
Leave me the garage
And all I..
Yes all I need are keys and guitars
And its with in 30 seconds I'm leaving to Mars
Yeah we leaping across these undefeatable odds
Its like this man, you can't put a price on the life
We do this for the love so we fight and sacrifice everynight
So we aint gon stumble and fall never
Waiting to see this in the sign of defeat uh uh
So we gon keep everyone moving their feet
So bring back the beat and then everyone sing

It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag
Ain't about the (uh) Cha-Chang Cha-Chang.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Blang Ba-Blang

I Love this!!

May I have your order, please?

2011-06-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

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PTA meeting will be held this Sunday. And like previous years before, I was once again given the task to be in-charge of FOOD! The most irksome task! Although I ~~like~~ love to eat so much, this is the one thing related to food that I hate so much!

Why? You might wanna ask. Let me list out the reasons:

You have to order the food according to the tiny budget and yet it has to be satisfying. In other words, pay little but expect it to be a scrumptious meal. NO! can't do! This is where the problem starts. I have to argue, bargain, plead and everything that I can think of to make ends meet.
Lack of co-operation from other colleagues always makes this task like a one-man show. From getting the budget, ordering the food, serving/distributing the food (breakfast) during the meeting and then serving lunch at the end of the meeting, I always found myself alone. I did get help from a a colleague last year but she was the only one who helped. Thanks J!
I hate dealing with the arrogant canteen operator! Since the canteen is our main food supplier, I have no little choice but to get all the food from ~~her~~ them. Honestly, I rather get my order from an outside supplier but last year's incident haunted me badly. The canteen operator was so angry with me and kept on calling to scold me because I ordered some of the food from other supplier, and not from them. I was like WTF...I did order a big portion from them, I paid more than RM2000, wasn't it enough? Gimme a break..let other people make some fortune sometimes, will you! To get back at me, the canteen operator only served food for 200-250 parents and teachers (I forgot the exact number, too painful to remember), less 100 than the actual order. But still they said it was for 350 people. What were they thinking? I was a fool? I didn't know how to count? Luckily, the parents who stayed until the end of the meeting amounted less than 350, so there was enough food for everyone. [Yeah, clap hands!!]

For this year PTA meeting due on Sunday, I haven't contacted the canteen operator yet. I haven't made up my mind yet.

10 more!

2011-06-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

I followed the first few seasons of the reality show, The Biggest Loser, US, Australia and Asia version closely. I was so amazed by the changes the participants did at the end of every show. Losing more than 100 pounds, some even lost half of their weight during that show. Incredible!

Then I stopped watching! Because I feel so sad, there is no way I can be like them. I have been forever trying to lose weight and I never succeeded reaching my ideal weight. With my height, [yes.. I am short!] I need to shed about ten more kilos! 10 is a very big number!

Imagine how would I look if I were 10 kilos lighter??? I always wonder!

Pa, My Father.

2011-06-19T12:09:00.000+08:00

Pa, my youngest brother and me.

Before I was myself you made me, me
With love and patience, discipline and tears,
Then bit by bit stepped back to set me free,
Allowing me to sail upon my sea,
Though well within the headlands of your fears.

Before I was myself you made me, me
With dreams enough of what I was to be
And hopes that would be sculpted by the years,
Then bit by bit stepped back to set me free,
Relinquishing your powers gradually
To let me shape myself among my peers.

Before I was myself you made me, me,
And being good and wise, you gracefully
As dancers when the last sweet cadence nears
Bit by bit stepped back to set me free.

For love inspires learning naturally:
The mind assents to what the heart reveres.
And so it was through love you made me, me
By slowly stepping back to set me free.

Poem credit.

Happy Father's Day

2011-06-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

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My Beloved Pa..

I miss you so much.
There is not a single minute passed without me thinking of you.
You taught me to be a person.
The days spent with you were the days I treasure so much.
Thank you Pa.
May your soul rest in peace
Amen.

          When my father passed away in 1996, I cried for days. I didn't eat and sleep properly and as a result I lost a few kilos. His death was the saddest episode in my life. His memories still linger until now and become a part of myself. I still shed a tear for him til now...yes I do. Because I was his favourite little girl.

          Being his favourite girl, I got all his undivided attention. He was a man of few words. He didn't talk much unless it was important. He seldom joked. The only person in the house he would tell his jokes to was my mom. In our eyes he had no sense of humour at all. He was very strict, black is black to him, don' t try to change it to any other colours unless you have a very good excuse and a very good excuse was not easy to find! No smoking, no alcohol, no boyfriends or girlfriends until you are old enough and have your own money to earn your living..(ain't no daddy's money going to be wasted on gfs and bfs), no skipping classes, no loitering at shopping complexes, and a few more NO here and there. He was not only strict to his children but to the people under his supervision as well. As fierce as a lion he might seemed, yet he was well respected by his friends and staff.

          He was a family man. He used to bring us out for dinner in his blue Volkswagen once a month after payday. With 5 children and 2 grown-ups in the car, we were like sardines in a can. Sometimes, when it rained we had to prepare with towels to wipe the foggy windscreen because the car was not equipped with air-con. Mom had to constantly wipe the windscreen so that my dad would see clearly….and to make thing worse, he was a fast driver. Driving slowly made me sleepy he told us when we asked him to slow down.

          He worked for the British Navy (based in Sabah) before Sabah gained its independence through the formation of Malaysia in 1963.Then he resigned and worked for RTM (Radio Television Malaysia) as a senior technician because he didn't want to leave my mom and my eldest sister who was only a few months then alone too often for too long. When we were small, he used to tell us about his days in the navy. I was his number 1 listener. I loved to hear his stories and would sit on his lap for hours. I still remember his stories about naked young girls they saw when they were cruising a river in a remote Sandakan area. They thought those girls were mermaids sitting on rocks. He also told us about his encounter with a whale in the open sea. He and his colleagues were followed by a whale while doing their night rounds. They didn’t know it was following the light from the boat. I could stay awake all night just to listen to his stories. I guess this explains my passion for men in uniform (but this is a different story :P).

          Although he had a set of rules to be followed, he was by no means heartless. As long as I remember, he was the most loving and generous man I’ve known…but of course in his own way. When he spoke, his voice was like a thunder even though it was only a normal conversation. So, you can imagine how horrifying it can be when he raised his voice scolding us….BUT….luckily he rarely did that. I couldn’t remember if he ever raised his voice at me. But I remember there was a time when he was trying as hard as he could to hold his anger against me for being careless with my savings. “Why on earth did you bring all your money to school??” “You trying to show off to your friends that you have a lot of money, aren’t you?!” I kept quiet, not making any sound or movement, I stared at the floor. Actually, I took the money to school to buy some reference books from my Maths teacher. My mistake was I left it in my schoolbag during recess. Dad was trying very hard to control his anger and he tried his best not to raise his voice at me but I know he was very disappointed with what I’ve done. The next morning Dad was his usual self again. He didn’t mention anything about the previous night.I guess he didn’t want me to feel guilty for something which was out of my control. Deep in my heart…I heard myself saying, ”thanks Pa”.

          When I started working at the age of 22, he was the one who sent and fetched me from work. He treated me the same when I was just started kindergarten. Everybody said I was daddy’s girl because he pampered me so much, thus making me depended too much on him. Unlike me, my other siblings refused to be sent or fetched from school when they started secondary school. They rather took the bus or walked.

         Oh God, now I'm started to weep! I can talk all days and nights about him. Every now and then, in whatever things I do, there seems to be something that’ll remind me of him.

I missed you Pa..I know you are watching me from heaven.

Happy Father's Day

Restless

2011-06-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

Restless by Jarie SZA

Confusion..empty..blank
Hate...anger..lonely
Love.. sad...anxiety
I guess I'm missing someone..
This feeling keep haunting me..
I hate it..I hate it!

I sensed you are doubting
Every words I said..
What should I do to make you see
That you are driving me crazy..
With your so-called words of love.

If it takes forever to make you understand
I will wait for that time
And if in the end
You shut me out from your world
I will try as hard as I could
to understand...

I wrote this poem back in 2006, October, 6th.
Jarie SZA is my pen name.

Busy June

2011-06-17T12:27:00.001+08:00

And so the first week of working day is almost over. It has been quite a busy week as a lot of things needed to be completed. Student's report cards, oral assessment, lesson plans, meetings, in-house training are some of the things that took place during the week.

Next week will be another hell. Setting of questions for July monthly test, PIBG (PTA) meeting on 26th June and school inspectors from the Education Department will come to monitor the school some time between 29th June to 29th July. There are a lot of preparation need to be done. The school principal has already told us to get ourselves ready; we might be interviewed to see our understanding of the department's vision and mission.

Oh well, hell month.. bring it on!

Updates! Updates!

2011-06-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

It has been a few days since I last wrote. Holiday was over and now I'm back at work. The first week is always the busiest ~~and the laziest~~ one. It is a time where things have to be adjusted to their normal phase or mode. For instance, waking up at 8.00 a.m during the holiday will have to be switched to its normal routine at 5.00 a.m.

But before I bother you with the normal routines, let me just recap what I did during the last 3 days before school reopened.

Snorkeling Trip with my BFF - (Friday, 10th June) Less than 12 hours after I got back from KL, I jumped on a boat and went to Manukan Island for a day trip of snorkeling. We have planned on this before I went to KL. It was a 'mommy-only-trip' as we didn't bring any family members with us. It was just the two of us.. relaxing, having fun! I had a wonderful time! My only regret was I didn't have an UW camera. The underwater scenes were amazing. I even spotted a frog fish!
Shopping - (Saturday, 11th June) The day was kinda boring as my eldest son was not at home. He went on a Scouts camping trip to Poring Hot Spring, Ranau. As I have nothing to do and the weather was gloomy (like my heart), I asked Mr Hubby to bring me shopping! Hahaha! So, what did I buy? A new mobile phone! Blackberry? IPhone 4? NO! It was Samsung Champs Duos. The reason I chose this phone is because it is a dual SIM phone. I have 2 SIM cards and hate carrying two phones, a phone that has this feature is my prerequisite when buying a mobile phone. So, my previous dual SIM phone, the loyal, Mr Chua Soi Lek (CSL) as my hubby and kids called it has to retire now as my new Mr Sam will take over.
Spring Cleaning! - (Sunday, 12th June) A day before school reopened, the three musketeers, Mr Hubby, my youngest son and me did some spring cleaning. Lucky for Abang (my eldest son) as he was not home yet, he was spared from this ~~hard~~ work! Sweeping, cleaning, washing, rearranging, throwing, brushing, wiping, scrubbing, ironing etc etc.. It was TIRING!!!

So, that was what I had been doing for the last three days before resuming work on Monday.

The jetty at Manukan Island

My Holiday Escapade: The Return Home

2011-06-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

So, my solo vacation was finally over. I went home last Thursday, totally exhausted but happy. Hubby and my sons met me at the airport. I was so happy to see them, again!!

During almost all of my solo vacation, there were three things that I basically did:

Shopping (or window shopping, depending on my financial status!)
Meeting friends (Friends that I've known through chat rooms)
Karaoke (this trip was a historical one. We went to Red Box at Low Yatt Plaza and sing for almost 7 hours, 8p.m. to 3a.m!)

I haven't got the chance to take many pictures during my holiday. I made a slide show on those few taken. I hope you'll enjoy the pics.

Sing Me a Lullaby

2011-06-06T03:59:00.001+08:00

The thing with a solo vacation is whenever you wake up in the middle of the night and can't sleep, you can stay awake and go online because nobody is going to ask you to go back to sleep!

So what did I do during my 'I can't sleep hours'. Here goes:

Turn the TV on and watch MTV (Jessie J is singing Price Tag right now)
Update my Facebook status (I can't sleep!)
Munch something (Loacker wafer cookies)
Check my mobile phones (Did anyone call while I was sleeping? No! OK!)
Bejeweled Blitz (Not enough score to beat anyone)
Sign in to my messenger and look for someone to chat with. (Nobody at this hour)
Read some online articles (Found this)

... Now, am I started to feel sleepy??

My Holiday Escapade: The Taxi Driver

2011-06-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

Today I met an honest taxi driver who didn't extra charge me and most importantly who didn't try to cheat me by driving his taxi around and fill the taxi meter for extra cash.

My previous experiences with taxi drivers were all but bad. Their M.O. was always the same. First, they will find out whether I was local (KL based) or not. Secondly, they will ask how frequent I came to the place and whether I am familiar with the roads etc. Next, they pretend they don't quite know the place as it is not a well-known tourist spot or it is a new hotel [GPRS won't help much at this point]. Then, they will start to drive around for almost one hour, pretending to look for the place. When they finally get me to the right destination, the supposedly 15-minute, less than RM10.00 taxi ride, has already reached RM50.00++.

The honest taxi driver, his name is Wan, really made my day today. Thank you!

A Wife vs A Sex Worker

2011-06-05T08:57:00.000+08:00

KUALA LUMPUR: A wife must obey and serve her husband like "a first-class prostitute" to keep him from straying and to prevent greater social ills, according to the Obedient Wives' Club.
The Malaysian branch of the club, launched here yesterday, was formed as an answer to social problems such as infidelity, prostitution, domestic violence and abandoned babies, which its members believed stemmed from a lack of belief in God and the failure of women to keep their husbands content.

Read more: 'Serve husbands like first-class prostitutes' http://www.nst.com.my/nst/articles//14prosi/Article/#ixzz1OM6xJ7GS

The article in today's local newspapers caught my attention instantly. My first reaction to the phrase "Serve husband like a 'first-class prostitute'", was, OMG, this is bullshit!! This is an insult to women!

First of all, the word 'prostitute' or 'sex worker' is degrading women particularly wives. I don't want to be label as such, no way. I don't get paid to have sex with my husband.

Secondly, a strong marriage is not built on sex solely. It is built on love, trust, respect, compassion etc. Sex is only a part of it but not entirely and to say most marriages fail are due to the wives' failure to satisfy their spouse is totally unacceptable. If a man has set his heart to cheat on his wife, he definitely will, no matter how good you are in bed, no matter how good-looking or sexy you are.

Thirdly, a long-lasting and happy marriage is not the wives' responsibility alone. The husbands play an important role as well. So, it is not fair to blame women if the relationship doesn't work well.

I was so pissed off.

My Holiday Escapade : The Hotel

2011-06-04T09:34:00.000+08:00

[This is not an advertisement or promotion of the mentioned hotel. I was not paid to write this. But how I wish they read this and pay me :-D]

I have booked hotels through Agoda.com via the internet a few times before but this time it was something different. I was so impressed with the room given at The Legend Hotel, Kuala Lumpur. It was not the normal room like I got when I came to the same hotel last year. This room is quite exclusive, Legend Crest. The published rate on the hotel website is RM498++ per night and amazingly I paid only RM206++ per night (minus services and taxes). For two nights I only have to pay about RM490++, almost the same amount for a night stay if I book through the hotel website.

I guess this is my lucky day.. My friend is loving me for this!

A TV plasma with a lot of channels

A comfortable bed

The bathroom

The bathtub and shower

The spacious room. It even has a balcony.

The view from the balcony. It has a swimming pool just a few floors down.

A complimentary Chinese tea drinks in a beautiful Nyonya Tea Set.

Leaving on a Jet Plane

2011-06-02T10:15:00.001+08:00

This is the fourth day of the 2-week school semester break. As much as I love waking up late and doing nothing, the idea of staying home freaks me out. Boredom will take over soon! Realising how insane I might get and how stagnant life would be, I booked myself a ticket to Kuala Lumpur, the city centre, where life knows nothing about days and nights! Life doesn't sleep! My agenda? Shopping and hanging out with friends from this other part of Malaysia, doing things we love.

Pix

Whenever people hear that I am going for a solo vacation, I noticed a frown on their faces, a sign of disagreement. Some even blurted, "Are you crazy! Are you out of your mind?! Leaving your husband and kids at home, while you party around with your friends!! It's not right!" Oh my God! How am I supposed to respond to this? Should I feel guilty? Maybe, in a way but it was not my fault if they do not share the same passion as I do. My husband is not as adventurous as me. He gets sick when he is away from home (I, on the other hand, get miserable when I stay at home for too long!). Unluckily for my sons, they inherited his genes.

But since when doing things that make me happy is unlawful? As long as I know where I am going, as long as I know what I'm doing, there is nothing sinful about me going on a holidays minus my family.

Last year, my husband got his degree, so, we went to his graduation in KL. What did they do after travelling thousand of miles across the South Chinese Sea? My husband and kids preferred to stay in the hotel room, sleeping than exploring the city. Now, that was a waste! I was so frustrated, double, triple frustrated.

But.. no worries.. that frustration was long over...and I'm boarding to KL, tomorrow!

See you there!

Happy Holidays!!

2011-05-31T10:09:00.000+08:00

Everyone loves holidays.. I extremely love it! The reasons why I so loveeee holidays are as followed (in random order):

Wake up late [extremely late!]
No-cooking day! [Hungry? Eat out!]
TV marathon
FB marathon
Out with friends
Spring-cleaning [depending on mood]
Informal dressing [ no 'baju kurung' and such LOL]
No relief classes [hate this very much!]

But most of all.. I can EAT, SLEEP and DO NOTHING!

Happy holidays!!!

The Undelivered Post

2011-05-30T22:20:00.000+08:00

I was browsing my friends list when I stumbled upon a friend of a friend (let's call the friend as A) who passed away recently. The wall is still actively used by A's friends to convey condolences. I don't have anything against that. What bother me is some post were directly written for her as if she is alive and still will be reading them posts. It was not right. It was not a proper way to show our sympathy. It was not a right way to be empathetic.

Maybe, I was wrong but I just don't feel like it was the right way.

What do you think? Should this account be deactivated/terminated? What is the right action to do when we realised that someone in our friends list is no longer 'there'?

Kotobian Tadau Kaamatan

2011-05-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

I would like to wish my family, friends and all the people of Sabah,

Kotobian Tadau Kaamatan

(Happy Harvest Festival)

Priest

2011-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

It was movie time again yesterday after watching 'Pirates of the Carribean' on Wednesday. This time it was 'Priest'. It is definitely my kind of movie. The battle between the good and evil , blood-sucking vampires, betrayal, friendships, love, sense of humanity, family affair, super strength, super awesome fast bikes, faith and... Paul Bettany.

Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides

2011-05-27T11:02:00.002+08:00

I went to watch Pirates of the Carribean 4: On Stranger Tides, last Wednesday with my colleagues right after Teacher's Day celebration and found that movie is just awesome like before. In addition to Jack Sparrow's charm is Penelope Cruz who played Blackbeard's daughter.

I love the movie, love Johnny Depp, love Penelope Cruz.. love.....

Of Growing Old and Shaking off the Fat

2011-05-26T17:03:00.001+08:00

I have to admit, age is catching up with me.. I am OLD! But of course I am. The number is really obvious. I can't deny it, can't run from it

Well, maybe I will still think that I m a 20-something lady if not for the aches I feel all over my body due to some strenuous activities yesterday. For people at my age, running back and forth for some 20 laps was no fun but tiring. And a game of tug-o-war is definitely not as easy as we think it is.

I am not interested in any kind of workout at all. (The only workout I do is standing on my Ogawa EZ Shape machine (picture) and let it works for me. I don't even know if the vibrating machine can shake the fat off my body). I don't do aerobics or yoga, I don't enjoy jogging. I avoid playing games not because I don't know how to play any ( I played basketball, volleyball and badminton during my younger days) but because I don't want to feel exhausted at the end of the game. So, when we were asked to play some games on Teacher's Day Celebration yesterday, I had not choice but to participate and as a result, my body is aching now.

The realisation came a little bit too late. Maybe, just maybe.. I need to start exercising now!

Al-Fatihah

2011-05-24T16:25:00.001+08:00

I was feeling very awkward yesterday. I felt that something was not right, felt like something missing. I didn't know that feeling has something to do with the news I received today.

A dear friend of mine lost her wife after battling cancer for years. She had been in and out of ward since she was diagnosed with the deadly diseases. She left behind three sons and a daughter with the eldest in Form 3 (15 years old) and the youngest, her only daughter, still in preschool.

My heart went out her family. I have known her husband, my friend, since I was in Form 3. We went to the same school, learned in the same class. I pray that he is given the strength to go through this difficult time.

Dearest friend,
Words cannot explain how you might feeling right now,
I don't even want to try to understand.
I just want to sit beside you and listen to the silence between us.
Letting go someone dear to the heart hurts, it always does
But sooner or later, you, I , everybody else will come to an end.

However, my dear friend,
Eventhough the precious one has left you.
You are still blessed with those little precious,
Your children who love and need you.
Don't let them drift apart in sadness,
You are their hope and they are yours,
Be strong for them.

My prayer,
May she'll be placed among those loved by HIM (Allah)

ZA
4.20p.m.
24/05/2011

Pix source : here

Fond Memories of Yesteryears TV Shows

2011-05-23T20:01:00.003+08:00

I grew up with these tv shows... they were so well remembered and I had fond memories of them....
Here are some of them (in random order):

Eight is Enough, Silver Spoon: It was all about family affair

Superheroes: Bionic Woman and Six Million Dollar Man

BJ and The Bear

My father's favourite became mine too

Crime investigation: Give me anytime

Hunks definitely!

They were just ummphhhh!!

Awesome all the time!

This was my family favourite. We watched this together every time.

But nothing beats this Super Hero Guy

the only and only

the ever popular

Hero of all time

scroll down

Yes ULTRAMAN!!!! The man who fought monsters and won every time. I like the plastic suit!

So, there you are... my all time favourite during my growing up days...

Miserable

2011-05-22T17:14:00.000+08:00

I have been that someone who looks out of a window, tells a tale no one care to listen, believes what I saw without questioning...I lost myself.Isn't it time for me to find myself once again? The self that I been denying.. trying to be everyone else but myself. I'm tired of running away from the truth. Being a fugitive, hunted by the unknown...if only I know where life is taking me, what to expect, when it'll end...I might not be as miserable as I am now...Pardon me, my mind drifts again...

Not Living in the Past

2011-05-22T10:37:00.004+08:00

I am so done with the past. I don't hold anything against my past, so why does anyone feel they have the right to remind me and make me regret of the things in my past.

I might have done some mistakes (hey who doesn't?) but I moved on. I didn't whine and cry my eyes out because of my mistakes. I learned from them, and even thanked them for making me the person I am today.

So, stop.. whoever you are.. stop worrying about my past because I just don't!

Thank you dearest students..

2011-05-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

It was a blast!

My students of Class 1-1 gave me a surprise (not really a surprise) birthday party last Thursday (19th May). I was aware they were planning something for my birthday as they were busy asking me about my favourite flavour (as in cake?). So when it was time for my English lesson with them, they made me wait outside the class and asked me to close my eyes as I entered the class. Just as I stepped in, a birthday song was sung.

I was so touched with their gesture. A birthday cake from Secret Recipe (sponsored by Alvin), fried rice, nuggets, buns, bread, sweets, drinks, brought by them, were on laid on the table. I was speechless.

Thank you my dearest students, you are the best!

Some of the gifts I received from the students

Thank you!

2011-05-18T07:30:00.001+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah.. dengan kurniaNya.. sampai jugak la umur ku mencecah 41 tahun hari ini. Kalau kira angka memang sudah tua la aku ni.. tapi entah kenapa, hati masih rasa muda lagi.. hahaha.. rasa macam masih mahu lakukan perkara-perkara yang dilakukan oleh orang yang lebih muda. Rasanya, perkara normal la bah tu kan... as the saying goes, 'You are as old as you think you are'.. so ...be positive.. and say..."Aku Masih Muda!!!!"

"Happy Birthday to Me"

Some twenty years afterwards...

2011-05-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Today was a public holiday, Wesak day.. my MPG (Maktab perguruan Gaya, KK, PSR-PI Batch 1990-1992) friends arranged a hi-tea mini get-together at Promenade Hotel.

Happy faces. Those faces who once were naive, young teenagers are now moms, hot mamas .

I was so happy to see them after the long separation.And thanks to FB for making this possible!
Luv u my friends!

Passion yang malap

2011-05-17T20:35:00.015+08:00

I always develop passion for something quite easily, too easy and as a consequence it burns out as fast as it comes. Dipendekkan kata dan di Bahasa Malaysiakan, saya cepat boring dengan sesuatu hobi.

Salah satu daripada passion tersebut ialah blogging. Saya mula mempunyai blog pada tahun 2003 iaitu selepas graduasi (amboi... terselit bahasa Indon ku sedikit). Setiap hari, mesti tulis blog, kalau tak tulis tak sah.. memang tak dapat tidur malam kerana belum menulis sesuatu tentang hari tersebut. Kadang-kala sekadar nak kata.. "Today, was a fine day. I went to work as usual and nothing interesting happened."

I blogged about anything, my work, family, friends, feelings, ramblings.. everything under the sun! So, what did I get from all the writings? Of course satisfaction! You must be asking, satisfaction from what? From the readers and their comments? NO!.. I didn't write for an audience. I didn't write to be known (aku menulis bukan kerna nama.. yaeh that Ramli sarip's song) I wrote anonymously. I didn't allow comments at all. I was writing for myself. I wanted to see in some five or ten years in the future, what I have gone through in life. What things did matter most in my life during that period of time.

My blog 'Wandering Minds: Rambling Thoughts of a Nobody' was officially closed to public in August 2009. I think I have written about it in this blog but I couldn't find it. Never mind anyway.

After closing 'Wandering Minds', I opened another blog account..yep yang sedang dibaca ni la 'Breathe, Live and Smell The Roses'... Tak tahu la why... but I just wanna write something. Maybe it is a way to pour out whatever inside me. Mula-mula memang bersemangat menulis, then lama-lama malas balik. Tu pasal ada yang setahun 3 entry saja.. hahaha...memang sah .. passion yang malap! So, what triggered me to write dengan penuh bersemangat dua tiga hari ni?Layout pun dah tukar..Well, my best friend wanna read something untuk menghilangkan boring dia at work, so she asked for my blog. Jadi, here it is.

Anyway, I will try my best to write again. To catch and feel that passion again, to satisfy my self, to lost in my own thought. I will..

Selamat Hari Guru

2011-05-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

Comic strip comes from here

Selamat Hari Guru 2011

"Guru Penjana Transformasi Pendidikan Negara"

Money! Money! Money!

2011-05-15T13:38:00.001+08:00

So, what is it with making fast buck by just clicking a link? Has it been proven true? Has anyone got rich by clicking away? If the answer to all these queries is YES, then I have no doubt wanted to have a share in whatever you guys are doing.

Ads like these are flooding Facebook

Not so long ago, I saw some relatives and friends went down the drain for investing in another money-making scheme. They were lured to handed over their money, thousands of RM (some of them their life-saving) to these 'smart' people who promised to invest their money in some fast-money-making companies that their existence cannot even be verified. In other words, 'virtual companies', where business is done over the internet. I don't need to mention any of those companies, do I?

So far, I have been lucky for not falling into this trap, not that they didn't try (they did, so many times, so persuasive!) but thanks to my skeptical intuition because until you can really SHOW ME THE MONEY, I'll have to turn down the offer...

American Idol vs Akademi Fantasia

2011-05-14T23:15:00.001+08:00

I have been watching these two reality shows from the beginning and noticed the differences are huge, macam langit dengan bumi! But I don't really care, still I watch anyway, for the sake of 'entertainment' hahaha!

What makes the shows rock and not so rock??? AI of cos la with the famous judges, Steven Tyler and Jeniffer Lopez (and Randy Jackson, yes he is too!) The AI comments were based on the vocal and performance, and nothing to do with the way they dress or walk, which AF normally do.

Ahhhh.... I can ~~condemn~~ comment all night long but I won't do that.. buang karan saja, orang bilang. See it yourself.

Bullying: Haven't we had enough?

2011-05-14T07:45:00.001+08:00

I guess we all have already seen the video of some schoolgirls bullying their unfortunate classmate posted in Youtube or Facebook. So, what is your instant reaction? It is not hard to tell that there are feeling of rage and anger towards these little bandits imps. They deserved to be hated!

But before we put the blame entirely on them, I only have one question to ask. Where are the school authorities, teachers, the school community, other students, when the incident occured? Why no one bother to take any proper actions?

Until it was too late and became national news, nobody seemed to care....

Thank you BFF

2011-05-01T19:00:00.003+08:00

A purse for my birthday..

My BFF gave me this lovely present for my birthday (in advanced)...Thank you Ern...

Giving a shot at Scuba-Diving

2010-12-04T17:58:00.000+08:00

This I must blog... must-do..MUST!

Last month has shown me that I, at the age of 40, succeeded in overcoming one of my greatest fear...OCEAN, Water! So, what did I do?
I SCUBA-DIVED!! Breathing underwater! How about that? Great, eh?

For some, it might not be a big deal but for me it was HUGE! To me, overpowering my fear is no small thing. Tostart with, it is a risky business and might lead to fatal casualties if one is not careful enough. Secondly, I'm no swimmer so being in the water scares the hell out of me, what more going under it. Thirdly, at my age, can

I do it?

Yet in the end... I DID IT!

knock knock!!!

2010-12-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

the last i wrote was February.. now it's December.. How time flies and how lazy i was... hehehe
I have so many stuff to blog but no time to write...(excuses, right on!) but i'll try to blog during my free time during the holiday.. ok beb!

When laziness took over....

2010-02-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

I haven't updated for months and months...that is no denying...now that the new year has begun, life will be even busier and time will be less on my side. What should I do? Do I have to do anything about my blog-writing that I once so used to love (well, I still do!), or shall I just ignore and go on with life. Why can't I find time to pen down some thoughts, events?

Time where are you when I need you most....

...huhuhu....

Go Holiday!

2009-11-15T14:54:00.001+08:00

Holiday is nearing... my mind has started to turn on its holiday mode. But, there are still lotsa work to do before the hols. Students' report cards, 001M, SPBT forms etc etc. I don't really have many plannings for the coming hols. The only plan I have so far is meeting up with my Teluk Intan friends in KL in early December. And well maybe some get-together with ex SBPLians, but date is yet to be confirmed.

I am thinking of going somewhere, anywhere with my family because if I do stay at home, the only thing I would be doing is facing my PC, FB-ing! The idea of family outing is nice but where can we go? There seems to be a lot of nice places to go but (there is always a BUT!)I have to take into account the time and our meager finance. While I couldn't do so much to overcome the first problem, I think I could something about the latter. The answer is voila...domestic travel!

Some of these places seem very tempting...but then of course it has to be within our tiny budget.

Sandakan!!

Lets see what plans I'll come up with...

The Twilight Saga: New Moon

2009-11-14T13:56:00.003+08:00

I am so ready to watch the sequel of last year's Twilight. Waiting for its release on 20th November but from what my friend said, it will only be showed in GSC 1B starting on 27th Nov...just gotta be a liltle more patient... ;-)

What is happening??? Edward leaving Bella? Bella's new love??

Last Day of School

2009-11-13T22:28:00.001+08:00

Today is the last day for the afternoon session students. Some of the classes had their class party today. My class? No! I told my students that was no need for them to have one now because I will still be seeing them next year, well of course as their beloved form teacher! Hahaha!!!!!

Anyway, I was invited by Class 2-3 and Ust. Khadizah to attend their party. It was yummy yummy goody good! There were spaghetti, fried rice, noodles, fruit salad, cakes, cookies and jeruk mangga!! Memang sedap!!

So, happy holiday dear students... take care and see you next year!

Here and there

2009-11-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

Yup.... the blog has been neglected for reasons only known to me....cut the crap la...it was the old lazy me like always.

Well, it's almost a month since I last wrote. It was not because nothing interesting happened, the opposite actually, too many things!

First, PMR was in the month of October. Afternoon session was cancelled, instead we had to come in the morning session. What did I do during that week? Well, completing uncompleted work! Preparing exam papers. But most of the time, eating and story-telling with friends at our beloved canteen!

Then, came our school Sem 2 exam (19-26 Oct). So, I was busy marking papers, grading, reporting, analysing and all. Very busy!

In the middle of my hectic exam schedule, I managed to go partying with some old friends. Not really partying actually, just a mini get-together with former class and schoolmates, SBPL.

After the exam, Sukantara (Sports Day) came. There I was on the field, under the blazing hot sun!

Talentime, I would like to call it, followed shortly after that. Each class had to perform either drama, poem etc related to literature in BM and English. I asked my students to prepare all...got to give them a bit of responsibility to manage on their own. They did eventho it was not a grade A presentation. Bravo anyway!

Then, last week (8th Nov), my school just had our Hari Profesional (Course in Professionalism) and annual dinner (hi tea?). It was held at 1Borneo Ballroom at 1B. Fun but tiring! I stayed at one of the hotel there, Courtyard, and my kids tagged along, oh well kids sans the daddy! The next day, Monday, i took a leave.

The week to come will be even busier... but awww....only a week to go!

Sigh......

2009-10-15T15:43:00.000+08:00

.... walking through some 5 kilometres away, without any money and intention, just following his guts, come what may...I don't know whether to feel angry or sympathy.

That was what happened to my son yesterday. He lost his mind over some quarrel with me. It sent me frantically mad searching high and low for him.

I cried my heart out, trying to let him see how I was badly hurt by his action.

I am lost for words....

Loving cats

2009-10-11T23:34:00.001+08:00

Loving cats....Korie (yellow one) and Bibi

Breathe, Live and Smell The Roses...

Adele - Set Fire to the Rain Lyrics

Whitney Houston - Greatest Ballads Medley (1985-2011)

Life is: Disappointments

Cannot Love?.. Why oh why???

The Pink Pill

How Things Have Changed!

Talking About The First Week

Back to school

The First of the 366 Days

Happy New Year 2012!!

AWWM: Day 7

AWWM: Day 6

AWWM: Day 5

Someone Like You

AWWM: Day 4

AWWM: Day 3

AWWM: Day 2

AWWM: Day 1

A Week With Me

Merry Christmas.

Concerns of The Heart

Highland Getaway: Kundasang, Ranau

Island Getaway 2 :Labuan

WW: Over My Shoulder

Darkmistry

Template Hancur!

Funny Quotes and Sayings

WW: Shoes

Island Getaway: Manukan

Welcoming December

Half -Way Through!

Masterchef-ing Myself

Do We Have to Do That?

Linkreferral, Where art thou?

Harimau Muda

My Wish

Faces of Innocence

I.O.U

Why Women's Brains Are Cheaper [ A Joke]

Super annoying, I can Be That Too!

What Teachers Make

Beyond: Down Memory Lane

Love Can Happen

Jar of Hearts

Happy Birthday, Sweet Sixteen!

Farewell Friend!

"Some friends are not friends, they just happened to be there. Sadly I learned it the hard way. Maybe it is time to bid farewell and go on"

Harimau against The Reds

Inspiring Words

Wordless Wednesday #1

Why Do Women Want to Look Pretty?

Itchy fingers, you failed me!!!

Connecting with the World

Jail and Rattan

My Favourite Quotes

I touch the future. I teach.

The Big C

Been away..busy!

Jessie J - Price Tag ft. B.o.B.

May I have your order, please?

10 more!

Pa, My Father.

Happy Father's Day

Restless

Busy June

Updates! Updates!

My Holiday Escapade: The Return Home

Sing Me a Lullaby

My Holiday Escapade: The Taxi Driver

A Wife vs A Sex Worker

My Holiday Escapade : The Hotel

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Happy Holidays!!

The Undelivered Post

Kotobian Tadau Kaamatan

Priest

Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides

Of Growing Old and Shaking off the Fat

Al-Fatihah